Who owns my heart, is it love or ego

I dunno what happen to my heart, since I can't focus on study right now... Thinking about him, hope for a miracle that he will call me but my expectation doesn't seem appear to real.
I'm disappointed about it.
Arghhhhh come on I know I can do it!!
Right guys..  Just keep my eyes close and take a deep breath....... Huhhhhh
But........ Just forget about it.
I wanna sharing with you guys
I think my heart is being stolen by somebody already, maybe... Who knows right??
I'm not ego I wanna protects my heart from hurt.
I can't confess my real feeling to him
Too much of thought -___-'
I'm so sick about this.
My heart beats skipping and I feel like my brain will exploded whenever I think about you.... وحشتني a capital letter A

doing an Assignment during mid term breaks

Assalamua'alaikum... helloooooo u all!!!!

Todayyyy!!! I'm so stressed urghhhh I know that not nice to sighing.. but I have to.

Assignment that I have to finished it before end of MID TERM BREAKS

• memorizing juzk 2 of AL-QURAN
• assignment of ENGLISH FOR SPECIFIC PURPOSE (but it's a group work) and (pair work) I don't have a friend to doing a pair work in the title of  "preposition" grammar
• BAHAS in subject SARF and FIQH AL 'AM ( I've nobody to ask to) :(
• preparing for Balaghah's mid term exam (amal sanah)

arghhhhhhhhhhh stressedddddd... but I've TO BE STRONG because that's is my task and duty as a Student's university 

my assignment

FEEL free to share your opinions and scold me. I don't care but I don't want to be friend with you anymore! I can't stand with your ugly behaviour maybe you forgot that I'm just an ordinary person that still do a mistake in my life AND NOBODY IS PERFECT and I have to admit that I HATE YOUUUUUUU~

Novel Suami Aku Ustaz in reality

Assalamua'alaikum.. hi blogger friends! :)
Good Morning woohoooo... let's start our day with brighten smile ^___^

Today.. mood in unstable (SAD, HAPPY, ANGRY OPPSS HUNGRY) haha  BE A LITTLE NAUGHTY.. hmm dunno why :P

About (SUAMI AKU USTAZ's novel) I've finished reading an interesting NOVEL fuhhh finally. It's about a USTAZ and a girl STUDENT who was forced by her parents to get married with an Ustaz to protected her when their parents go to performed UMRAH (kena kahwin paksa rela la kiranya)

Firstly, the Ustaz is very good looking and pious guy awww melting haha Ustaz name is Hafiz woww!! Hafiz means a good memorizing in al quran 30 juzk AWESOME mannnn~ perfect man to me opsss I mean PERFECT GUY to Alisa ;)

Secondly, Alisa's character in super crazy girl (naughty + clever + friendly + happy go lucky) I think she is are really luckiest girl in the world because she can get married with her COUSIN (Ustaz Hafiz)
Ustaz Hafiz seems be a little naughty when he with Alisa (hmm actually Ustaz Hafiz already affectionate with lisa (short name by Alisa) since they were young) He has crushed with Lisa already, Alisa is a cute girl but a little naughty and SELAMBA person (tak kisah ler taramm je apa dengan Ustaz Hafiz nie even Hafiz is her Hubby ewww HUSBAND)

Thirdly, Lisa is a stubborn wife and Hafiz always need to teached her "how to respect him" "how to take care her husband" "what's favourite of her husband and what's her husband dislikes" hehe so sweet of Ustaz Hafiz. I'm so respected Ustaz Hafiz because he's so patient guy when he doesn't touch alisa even Lisa is his real wife and their marriage is legal, after lisa finished SPM's exam and then ustaz hafiz touched lisa, that was a officially their "first night" wooot2x penyabar betul ustaz hafiz, ikan depan mata dia tak usik langsung haha and the most quotation I remembered from the novel is "Alisa you must wear sweater when rided a motorcyle because, a white uniform...raining.. you looks.....sexy" (nahh amekauu ustaz cakap lagu tu) *i have goose bumps*

Fourthly, they are happy together after Alisa knows that Hafiz ACTUALLY love her because of Allah (uhubbuki lillah)  Alisa got a son that his biological children and one adopt child, the childrens makes Ustaz Hafiz and her wife be a happy couple in the world because they are have face a many challenges through in their life (sour + sweet's life)

This story is really a sweetest and have an islamic couple love story beside in reality no couple before nikah! the story between Alisa and Hafiz makes me realized something that in our life we can happy even we nikah at young time just believe and put trust in Allah (He KNOWS THE BEST IN OUR LIFE) even though Alisa don't love his husband at the first but lastly her husband makes ALISA falls in love with him because of he is a pious guy and he knows about islam a lot that can be guided Alisa into the RIGHT PATH.

Hope they will be happy ever after and I can meet a person like USTAZ HAFIZ ahaksss..

A colourful stories on Jan 2013

Assalamua'alaikum.. And hi to all my blogger friends B-) *long time I'm not update a new entry huh! Miss me?? Haha sure not miss me right!*

A lot of stories that I want to tell you all but I keep half as my secret hehe.. :-P

As you guys knew already, I'm a islamic student in year 1 semester 2 (haha promote diri jap!!)

First class I start to attending a 'fiqh muamalat' at the first I enjoyed to learning the subject and understand very fast but... Out of sudden! The lecturer stared at me and make me feels nervous. Oh mannn *sigh* He said that I'm not focusing in his class perghhh.. It's embarrassing me because all students only focus their eyes to ME
How that the syeikh knows that I'm not focused in class but I do really focus because this my 1st time I learned back 'feqah' after STAM so I talked back to syeikh that I'm not do that "min aina enti" translating "where do you from" and I said "ana min kedah" and after that the syeikh said "al-jasad fil faslu wala kinna al-ruh fil bait" translating means "you body is in class but your mind at your home" yeahh all my friends in class laughed at me. I'm so angry with HIM but I tried to be patient (memandangkan dia lecturer aku so aku try bersabar dgn kerenahnya) and I'm succeed!! But until now he still not satisfied with me! I dunno why????

2nd thing happen when I can't access my portal feel like arghhhh stupidddd to sit at chair for many hours to register my course but have to wait for a few days to process it, damn! -_____-'

After a 1 week I got the info that I have to change my group ESP erghhhh tired enough with this!! From one group to another one group I changed and finally I got the best miss to teach me ESP, thanks Allah..Alhamdulillah
Even This is unfair to me because I already the way of teacher Zu teaching in class but I have to accepted my fate with my whole-hearted (redha jer la dgn takdir Allah) He knows the BEST for ME

3rd things that happen when I back from my class and went to cyber cafe to made copies of notes to my classmate. Out of blue someone stranger approached me "are you public speaking student?" I said yes because I'm too nervous at that time and he surprised me his voice (the voice its whispering nearly at my ears) and he asked me "why you don't wear your spect" I'm speechless and wondering whether I know him or not??? But my brain seems doesn't working fine, he looks so friendly and good looking but TOO BAD if he use his face just to tackle a girl at university because a real me doesn't like that guy just because of a face ONLY, a real me find a pious guy, smart guy plus gentleman hehe maybe i will get this a thousand years more because hard to find the mr.right at this time, now focus on study 1st! I don't remember him and maybe he is my classmate just.....maybe but I never seen his before this, and maybe this is a new way to flirting a girl in 2013 hahaha seriously that guy its so misterious and after that I've never see him anymore.. I'm fierce girl and not friendly with any guy so he never try to talk to me like we've been friends for a years even we are NOT!

That's it for tonight! Hehe :-)