Thursday, 20 March 2014

Erti KASIH bagi diriKU

Setiap kali hati ini terdetik dan berbisik lagu rindu kepadamu.. (BISIKAN SYAITAN) Aku padamkan namamu dari fikiranku.. mula memikirkan hal-hal yang lebih penting dalam hidupku.
Apabila hati ini mula menyebut namamu aku bisukan ia dengan alunan surat cinta dari yang Maha Pencipta.. sungguh hati ini tidak mahu lalai walau seketika penat lelah tidak terkira ingin menghapuskan dikau dari ingatan. Walaupun diantara kita tidak pernah tercipta kenangan INDAH tapi entah mengapa, melihat senyumanmu dan ketawamu mampu melapangkan DADAKU.
(adat la tengok orang yang sejuk “mata memandang” hati pun jadi lapang hehe awwww..)
Mungkin ini yang mereka gelar CINTA, RINDU, SAYANG, KASIH tapi tidak bagi diriku kerana aku diajar UNTUK MENCINTAI ORANG YANG MENCINTAI AKU, mencintai KHALIQ penciptaku, mencintai KEDUA IBU BAPAKU, mencintai TANAH TUMPAH DARAHKU, mencintai AGAMA yang aku berpegang padanya seratus peratus akidahku, mencintai SAHABAT yang sedia ada disampingku.
Aku BELAJAR DAN DIAJAR untuk merindukan orang yang HALAL disisiku, merindui Tuhan yang Esa Allah yang Maha Berkuasa, Maha Pengasih lagi MAHA PENYAYANG, diajar untuk menrindui orang yang merindukan jalan syahid-MU ya Rabbi, merindui kawan yang saban malam bersama aku berjihad menuntut ILMU, merindui akan kemanisan IMAN, merindui melihat ISLAM tertegak sepenuhnya di atas muka bumi.
SAYANG?? Tidak bererti langsung pada diriku.. sayang tak pernah membawa maksud yang besar dalam hidupku!
Setiap makhluk di atas muka bumi ini dikurniakan dengan perasaan SAYANG, sedangkan binatang juga mempunyai perasaan ini, jadi memang PERASAAN SAYANG tidak pernah membawa erti dalam hidupku
KASIH padaku mempunyai erti yang sangat mendalam, sukar untuk aku nafikan, jika kita cinta pada seseorang mungkin kita sanggup menderita asalkan dia bahagia, walhal jika dia lebih menderita jika tidak bersama kita kenapa kita harus tinggal dia?? Pening bukan!! Jadi bagi aku KASIH adalah satu perasaan yang tidak dapat digambarkan dengan kata-kata..  PENCIPTA kita mempunyai kasih yang meluas dan mengasihi hamba-hambanya jadi jika ditakdirkan aku mempunyai seorang yang aku CINTA, RINDU, SAYANG aku masih boleh melepaskannya tapi sekiranya aku mempunyai keKASIH aku jamin aku akan mengasihinya lebih dari orang yang aku CINTA, RINDU DAN SAYANG dan taat padanya tidak kurang dan tidak lebih seperti mana aku mengasihi Allah dan Pesuruh Allah yang aku letakkan ianya di sudut hati aku yang paling tinggi. KASIH wujud bilamana manusia berkasih-kasihan (loving) KASIH juga wujud timbul dengan perasan Belas KASIHan.
JADI nyatalah di sini KASIH adalah melebihi dari segalanya.
Bukan dengan seseorang yang kita CINTA, RINDU ATAU SAYANG tapi ia wujud kerana KASIH yang melimpah ruah yang diberikan untuk kita.
Saling KASIH-mengasihi sesama  insan tak salah asalkan ia berada di landasan yang betul dan tidak tersasar dari radar yang salah. Biarlah kasih yang kita cari kasih yang suci, tanpa noda, paling penting LIMITED EDITION untuk YANG HALAL.
Akhir kata, kalam ini hanyalah untuk luahan hati agar dapat mencintai, merindui, menyayangi yang maha menyayangi lebih lagi dari hanya insan biasa yang dicintai tapi cinta itu tidak membawa kemana selagi mana ia TIDAK HALAL, TIDAK RESTU DARIPADA AYAH BONDA, TIDAK SAMPAI KE SYURGA.
PERINGATAN buat diri sendiri UNTUK kejar cita-cita sebelum kejar CINTA
Ayat tu dah biasa kita dengar!
Ayat baru la plak kan?
KEJAR keKASIH yang DI AKHIRATI sebelum KEJAR keKasih yang DI DUNIAWI!!
ILAL LIQO’ مع السلامة  TATA! ADIOS! GOOD BYE!

Tuesday, 12 November 2013

Who owns my heart, is it love or ego

I dunno what happen to my heart, since I can't focus on study right now... Thinking about him, hope for a miracle that he will call me but my expectation doesn't seem appear to real.
I'm disappointed about it.
Arghhhhh come on I know I can do it!!
Right guys..  Just keep my eyes close and take a deep breath....... Huhhhhh
But........ Just forget about it.
I wanna sharing with you guys
I think my heart is being stolen by somebody already, maybe... Who knows right??
I'm not ego I wanna protects my heart from hurt.
I can't confess my real feeling to him
Too much of thought -___-'
I'm so sick about this.
My heart beats skipping and I feel like my brain will exploded whenever I think about you.... وحشتني a capital letter A

Wednesday, 13 February 2013

doing an Assignment during mid term breaks

Assalamua'alaikum... helloooooo u all!!!!

Todayyyy!!! I'm so stressed urghhhh I know that not nice to sighing.. but I have to.

Assignment that I have to finished it before end of MID TERM BREAKS


  • memorizing juzk 2 of AL-QURAN
  • assignment of ENGLISH FOR SPECIFIC PURPOSE (but it's a group work) and (pair work) I don't have a friend to doing a pair work in the title of  "preposition" grammar
  • BAHAS in subject SARF and FIQH AL 'AM ( I've nobody to ask to) :(
  • preparing for Balaghah's mid term exam (amal sanah)
arghhhhhhhhhhh stressedddddd... but I've TO BE STRONG because that's is my task and duty as a Student's university 
my assignment
FEEL free to share your opinions and scold me. I don't care but I don't want to be friend with you anymore! I can't stand with your ugly behaviour maybe you forgot that I'm just an ordinary person that still do a mistake in my life AND NOBODY IS PERFECT and I have to admit that I HATE YOUUUUUUU~

Novel Suami Aku Ustaz in reality

Assalamua'alaikum.. hi blogger friends! :)
Good Morning woohoooo... let's start our day with brighten smile ^___^

Today.. mood in unstable (SAD, HAPPY, ANGRY OPPSS HUNGRY) haha  BE A LITTLE NAUGHTY.. hmm dunno why :P

About (SUAMI AKU USTAZ's novel) I've finished reading an interesting NOVEL fuhhh finally. It's about a USTAZ and a girl STUDENT who was forced by her parents to get married with an Ustaz to protected her when their parents go to performed UMRAH (kena kahwin paksa rela la kiranya)

Firstly, the Ustaz is very good looking and pious guy awww melting haha Ustaz name is Hafiz woww!! Hafiz means a good memorizing in al quran 30 juzk AWESOME mannnn~ perfect man to me opsss I mean PERFECT GUY to Alisa ;)

Secondly, Alisa's character in super crazy girl (naughty + clever + friendly + happy go lucky) I think she is are really luckiest girl in the world because she can get married with her COUSIN (Ustaz Hafiz)
Ustaz Hafiz seems be a little naughty when he with Alisa (hmm actually Ustaz Hafiz already affectionate with lisa (short name by Alisa) since they were young) He has crushed with Lisa already, Alisa is a cute girl but a little naughty and SELAMBA person (tak kisah ler taramm je apa dengan Ustaz Hafiz nie even Hafiz is her Hubby ewww HUSBAND)

Thirdly, Lisa is a stubborn wife and Hafiz always need to teached her "how to respect him" "how to take care her husband" "what's favourite of her husband and what's her husband dislikes" hehe so sweet of Ustaz Hafiz. I'm so respected Ustaz Hafiz because he's so patient guy when he doesn't touch alisa even Lisa is his real wife and their marriage is legal, after lisa finished SPM's exam and then ustaz hafiz touched lisa, that was a officially their "first night" wooot2x penyabar betul ustaz hafiz, ikan depan mata dia tak usik langsung haha and the most quotation I remembered from the novel is "Alisa you must wear sweater when rided a motorcyle because, a white uniform...raining.. you looks.....sexy" (nahh amekauu ustaz cakap lagu tu) *i have goose bumps*

Fourthly, they are happy together after Alisa knows that Hafiz ACTUALLY love her because of Allah (uhubbuki lillah)  Alisa got a son that his biological children and one adopt child, the childrens makes Ustaz Hafiz and her wife be a happy couple in the world because they are have face a many challenges through in their life (sour + sweet's life)

This story is really a sweetest and have an islamic couple love story beside in reality no couple before nikah! the story between Alisa and Hafiz makes me realized something that in our life we can happy even we nikah at young time just believe and put trust in Allah (He KNOWS THE BEST IN OUR LIFE) even though Alisa don't love his husband at the first but lastly her husband makes ALISA falls in love with him because of he is a pious guy and he knows about islam a lot that can be guided Alisa into the RIGHT PATH.

Hope they will be happy ever after and I can meet a person like USTAZ HAFIZ ahaksss..



Saturday, 12 January 2013

A colourful stories on Jan 2013

Assalamua'alaikum.. And hi to all my blogger friends B-) *long time I'm not update a new entry huh! Miss me?? Haha sure not miss me right!*

A lot of stories that I want to tell you all but I keep half as my secret hehe.. :-P

As you guys knew already, I'm a islamic student in year 1 semester 2 (haha promote diri jap!!)

First class I start to attending a 'fiqh muamalat' at the first I enjoyed to learning the subject and understand very fast but... Out of sudden! The lecturer stared at me and make me feels nervous. Oh mannn *sigh* He said that I'm not focusing in his class perghhh.. It's embarrassing me because all students only focus their eyes to ME
How that the syeikh knows that I'm not focused in class but I do really focus because this my 1st time I learned back 'feqah' after STAM so I talked back to syeikh that I'm not do that "min aina enti" translating "where do you from" and I said "ana min kedah" and after that the syeikh said "al-jasad fil faslu wala kinna al-ruh fil bait" translating means "you body is in class but your mind at your home" yeahh all my friends in class laughed at me. I'm so angry with HIM but I tried to be patient (memandangkan dia lecturer aku so aku try bersabar dgn kerenahnya) and I'm succeed!! But until now he still not satisfied with me! I dunno why????

2nd thing happen when I can't access my portal feel like arghhhh stupidddd to sit at chair for many hours to register my course but have to wait for a few days to process it, damn! -_____-'

After a 1 week I got the info that I have to change my group ESP erghhhh tired enough with this!! From one group to another one group I changed and finally I got the best miss to teach me ESP, thanks Allah..Alhamdulillah
Even This is unfair to me because I already the way of teacher Zu teaching in class but I have to accepted my fate with my whole-hearted (redha jer la dgn takdir Allah) He knows the BEST for ME

3rd things that happen when I back from my class and went to cyber cafe to made copies of notes to my classmate. Out of blue someone stranger approached me "are you public speaking student?" I said yes because I'm too nervous at that time and he surprised me his voice (the voice its whispering nearly at my ears) and he asked me "why you don't wear your spect" I'm speechless and wondering whether I know him or not??? But my brain seems doesn't working fine, he looks so friendly and good looking but TOO BAD if he use his face just to tackle a girl at university because a real me doesn't like that guy just because of a face ONLY, a real me find a pious guy, smart guy plus gentleman hehe maybe i will get this a thousand years more because hard to find the mr.right at this time, now focus on study 1st! I don't remember him and maybe he is my classmate just.....maybe but I never seen his before this, and maybe this is a new way to flirting a girl in 2013 hahaha seriously that guy its so misterious and after that I've never see him anymore.. I'm fierce girl and not friendly with any guy so he never try to talk to me like we've been friends for a years even we are NOT!

That's it for tonight! Hehe :-)

Sunday, 18 November 2012

The secret is revealed

Assalamua'laikum to my fellow friends..
I don't know how to start my story so I made summary to tell my story.
Last night, I was shocked when I know the truth from my friend.
Finally the secret about one year has revealed when the person that I trusted so much told me something I don't know and I REALLY WANT TO KNOW! Thanks my friend :-)
You! Stop disturbing me and told me that you love me, you are such a liar, I shouldn't believe you at the first, you makes me and my feeling as a jokes! Arghh enough is ENOUGH!!
Now I know who are you and who you are? You're hiding behind your innocent face, your good behaviour but now I'm not stupid anymore to believe in everything you do! Thanks Allah because I never accepted your 'FALSE LOVE'

"I'VE never fall in love with any guy in the world... but just melting when see pious guy :P"

Wednesday, 24 October 2012

WHY I SHOULD STUDY IN EXAM?? AND WHY EXAM IS IMPORTANT TO ME?

Assalamua'laikum....
hello all! how's your life? hope everything is going well. Err..but i'm NOT 

stressed?? maybe a bit because the need to STUDY..STUDY..AND...STUDY... fuhhh my brain is going to EXPLODED 

EXAM'S QUESTIONS IS SO HARD!!! sometimes, I wondering why lecturer make a hard question for students in exam! have a pity on me please...... Too lazy... ARGHHHHH -____-

Yeahh I know study is important BUT!!! the most important is our life maa..

It's not easy to acted COOL when you're not! STUDY ON TIME is not my style.. study WHEN YOU HAVE A MOOD and FOCUS as many as you can is MY STYLE haha :P

I just finished 1 PAPER ONLY it's FOUNDATION ENGLISH but it's so difficult and I don't have enough time to checked my answers back... uihhhhhh RUGIIIII..

4 PAPER more to go... pray for my best.. :)

study in exam importnt BECAUSE IF WE'RE NOT STUDY WE CAN FAILED AND MENYESAL seumur hidup BECAUSE NOT STUDY BEFORE

READING...MEMORIZING..MAKE A NOTES..MAKE A STUDY GROUP...PRAY..GET READY FOR EXAM... TAWAKAL...

MAKE SURE YOU DO THE BEST BECAUSE ALLAH WILL DO THE REST...

                                                                                                        From my brain
                                                                                                          huda